amazing

i lie here on the bed listening to my husband playing a video game in the other room with his son, and my heart feels ready to burst with love and delight at the sound of his laughter. his voice is filled with glee and child-like merriment as he and his offspring do battle with odd worm-like video game characters; and although there is a vague feeling of being a spectator in my own life, i know it is only temporary as we all begin to adjust to the new life that we have chosen.

but the sound of his voice warms me, delights me and reminds me just how much i love this man, and how happy i am to be his wife, and how i would do anything for him - including step aside so that the pressure is off him for a little while. i am counting the minuted until it is once again just he and i, and we can spend these last few, precious days together learning to be husband and wife.

part of me worries about "too much, too soon", of course, as does he; but the rest of me reminds us both that this is only day two. we have been married for less than 48 hours, and the sacrifices made now will yeild sweet, delicious fruit in the future, and that is the only thing that matters....