37 days, 3 hours, 34 minutes and 40 seconds

he is the most amazing, wonderful man i have ever known. i breathe the slightest mention to him about hoping to hear him play and he clears time in his busy day to play the piano for me.

what a loving, giving man - and what a stark contrast to aj's emotional stingyness; his meanness.

i know how excited we both are getting, yet at the same time, bruce is right: the relationship is settling into its right framework. we are so comfortable with one another, so in love with one another, so attracted to one another that i know that i, for one, can't imagine what might pull us apart now.

we've had some extrordinarily challenging conversations, each of them with love and respect, each of them ending with us loving one another more; respecting one another more; wanting to be together more.

i am so blessed by this man's life, and i only hope that i can be worth his time and effort. he may not quite be able to get his head around it - but crossing the world to spend my life with him is absolutely the right thing to do.

thank you God. thank you for not only making this amazing man, but for giving him to me....